It has been so many moons

Sleepless nights and days

No sorrow, but something is always wrong

I can't shake the happiness away

Tell you I'm ok

But I know deep inside this peace of mind won't last a day

I crawl with all my forces searching inside for a clue

But I'm not the only one

I'm not smart enough to spot the errors and what makes my core to destabilise.

So many days where the sun was bright enough to blind anyone

And It didn't tear apart my doubts and fears

I wish I could be dead 

Numbness is better than worrying all the time

Worrying that drives me crazy and takes my sanity away

I never could grasp what life was going to bring me 

But I remember traces

I remember being somewhat like I am now.

A construct of the imperfection that I now am

A project, A new massive blurb of emotions.

And here lies what I am.